how many times can I run over the same exact thing in my head?? how many different ways can I think to change the past if I could go back or to fix it when I see her. I just want everything to be better. I want peace. with friends, ex friends, enemies, and everything in between.
as a race, we need to stop judging people, stop telling them they aren't perfect. no one's perfect. we all try the best we can, but our mistakes are always with us. we never get a chance to start anew. so we get forced to hate on each other for silly things. I want to wake up every morning and be able to just do whatever with whoever and not have to worry about people holding grudges if I mess up. I want the world to be beautiful once again. is that too much to ask for on my birthday? if so, just give me another chance with one girl. you know which one. the wife who lets my heart bleed like it's a joke. there's not much else I can say.
my heart yerns to be filled, to let my body do the thinking, to let go and give myself over to love 100% without a single worry. most of all I wish I could just melt into her and become one. at least that way I would be close to her. I could help her to get through the next few weeks whilst her twin, her best friend is on the other side of an ocean, with more than a continent between them. if only the candles would actually make it happen instead of giving empty promises.
17. only? already? I just don't even know anymore. I feel like I have been here too long already, like I should be a good way into my 20s, although some moments I feel as though I am still that confused little one who doesn't know who or what they are. waiting for the double digits to hit.
the world has gone to shit since then and I can't recognize it anymore. this can't be the same place that I once fell in love with.
don't forget about the song quote post titles. go ahead and give it a try.
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