don't you ever, every feel like you're less than fucking perfect.

sorry. I know, I suck. I passed out around 10.30 last night, but here's some crap free verse from math yesterday..






how can someone love you one moment
and hate you the next?
how can 2+ years of amazing friendship
go to waste over one thing?
the sad part is it wasn't big,
the worst that you could make of it.
it doesn't measure up.
if I could see inside her head
just to figure out why
why won't she talk to me?
I crumble again and again
how many time can a heart break
still over the same girl?
I feel the cold
it's settled in my bones.
only despair
no way to find hope again.
there she is walking away
I call her name
but she won't turn.
she enjoys watching me squirm,
feeds off my misery
I am lost
without her my soul is empty
maybe this is what she always wanted.
so she turns them all against me
I'm drowning
it's happening again.











pain
it flood my body
invading, molesting
until the job is done.
there is no return
suffering
it must end.
like a drug
I just can't give her up
I can't confront her
she is toxic

I am toxic

I should be locked away

everything I touch becomes damaged

for the things I am, I die

no one should see the nightmare

my end would stop the

pain.

<3 <3