driving lesson... you were interesting. just a few more before the nikki is off to get her N. which hopefully will be somewhat closely followed by getting my first truck. yes, I say truck because I'm that badass and I hate how low cars are. besides trucks are fucking sexy. I have literally dreamed about sexy trucks with orgasmic paint jobs. still the coolest paint job I've ever seen is still the demon truck with flames and the devil on the hood and a demon spawn on the gas tank cover. intricate designs for the win. I mean, what could be better than mixing art, trucks, and girls??? exactly: nothing. so yes, I am allowed to dream about it.
today I found myself needing to call 'my girl' and tell her how beautiful she is. I then realized that I'm single.. and not really even in the prospect of being with someone. apparently I physically don't know how to be single. greaaaat. which makes waiting around for my wife to cool down and talk to me even harder to do. am I fucked or am I fucked?? and not in a good way. but can I really help it that I want someone to wrap my arms around and shelter from the cruelty of the world, someone to touch and feel and connect with, someone to love and not have to worry about what anyone else thinks. it's hard enough finding girls that are into me and don't live hours away, let alone OUT girls.
really can't wait to chop off my hair. might have to do it without my mom knowing too. which makes it even cooler. don't exactly know how exactly I'm going to do it yet, but I can figure it out, got lost of time. stooooked for the epic black hair though. been waiting for it since summer. really miss the red bits too.
random fact of the day: I don't really have friends, they just pretend. if they were real we'd actually talk, we'd keep feeling like we were always together despite the distance. we wouldn't keep growing farther and farther apart until I ask myself on a daily basis if it was just a dream. I wouldn't be thrown into a state of limbo where back home no one cares about our past together, only what's going on without me, and where all that matters in the past my new 'home' has spent together, never mind the fact that I'm here now. in a way I've felt this since gr.4, the first time a switched between tsawwassen and richmond. I have never been a whole of either since my roots were ripped up without a proper explanation. just shards of a human's soul, a mixture of everything that the soul contains burned until only a few lucky ashes remain.
*new contest*
for all of you who are amazing out there, I have a little bit of a trivia bit for you.
every day since the begining of the year (so all the 2011 post except the very first one) are quotes from songs. if you can figure out what song hit me up: nikkiasb@hotmail.com
put the title of the post aka the quote, and your guess at the song. feel free to guess at every single one.
this will be an ongoing contest. no, there are no big prizes for getting the most right, this is just for fun.
also, if you have any topics or questions you'd like me to discuss send them my way.
love you,
<3 <3
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