oi. so much emotions I don't know what to do with them all. I could be all happy because I applied for acting at vanarts then got to spend time with friends at night market and white spot. or nervous cause I have to write a letter of intent and audition with a contemporary monologue and a shakespearean one.... or pissed because my mom thinks it's a crime for friends' parents to not offer me a ride home and leave me at the bus stop so I'm grounded next weekend. or depressed because I got a parking ticket. my very first ticket. aparently I was too close to a crosswalk... and that means byebye $45.
then there's my whole I'm a total pimp with my dykecut. my own friends mistook me for a boy for a split second. which means I'm totally stokeeeed.
this is like the next step in my coming out. my grandparents even came to see my play when I haven't officially come out to them. and they liked it apparently. my grandma, the one who's super old-fashioned and wants me to be super feminine and stuffs. and my grandpa, who complains about almost everything if he doesn't get fed. I just don't know if they've put two and two together. hahgraacdqjuifans
I dunno, I guess I'm just feeling more comfortable and ready to actually come out to people as a genderless (or genderqueer if they need a label) mostly gynosexual. and I'm starting to need people to recognize that so I can feel comfortable in my body, as awkward as it is.
and yeknow, queer prom is coming up June 10 so I need to be ready to be super pridey :)
even more so than usual. if that's even possible. prolly not really, but I can try.
<3 <3
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