I think I'm more than a little bit in love with my hair. :)
is all prettyful and stuffs. plus yeknow, I like being confused for a boy. and the stares little kids give you when they're trying to figure out what exactly your sex is. hehehe. I know that's kids mean to confuse the little kiddies, but genderfuckery is just so much more fun.
and more thinking about grad. apparently I can't go to my old school's. they aren't letting anyone from different schools, which SUCKS. they're getting the pink limo without me :( and honestly how much fun is a azn geekery grad gunna be? it's not like anyone there will even be up for crazy whateverness. barely anyone will even be up for dancing...
apparently there hasn't been anyone who had a same-sex date before. so if on the odd chance I do manage to hold onto a girl and be able to bring her to grad, it'll be all taboo and shizz. and outfits. that will be a whole other story. trying to mix feminine and masculine in the perfect amount. and have my family be ok with it. I really should learn to use a sewing mashine so I can do some stuff on my own.
need to start on some sketches and all that. or I could just find a dress with a crazy big skirt and super plain on top that I can still manage to bind while wearing, and then stick a dress shirt and suit jacket on top. and tie. maybe bowtie. hmmms. FUUUU so many options. good thing I have over a year to figure this all out. but if I'm gunna be putting this together by actual sewing and stuffs then I should get started soon. lalalala
as if everyday outits aren't hard enough to figure out.. making me be all fancy and shizz. I hate dressing up, there's nothing that I think actually represents ME. even mixing feminine and masculine it doesn't really feel right. the most I can feel completely comfortable and still be somewhat formal is suit jacket, dress shirt, tie/ bowtie, and skinny jeans. maybe some kick-ass boots or oxfords or something.
less than two weeks till queer prom. getting nervous. really fucking nervous. gahhhhhh!!!! I mean, what do I fucking wear???? and is anyone from Richmond actually coming with me? my two queerios that want to just don't know if they can yet... snjshwkeejtigi
BREATHE!!!
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So, I don't really know how I stumbled onto this blog, but I wanted to say, cheer up! : ) I like smiles on pretty people and I can tell from your pictures that you are certainly pretty! So, smile some more! You're lucky your school will even have a queer prom, so have fun and make lots of great memories! Trust me, the world out of high school gets so much better!
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