he isn't quite sure how to get used to camp again. this time everything's different. he couldn't even get off the ferry without feeling like he's lying to them all. he gets shoved in the 'girl' category to have rooms and they've already had the girly mash-ish games where they tried to make him pick boys. he doesn't even know if he'll end up telling anyone who doesn't already know. things are getting slightly awkward.
mud gets everywhere. honestly, his boots are covered in the three hours he's been here. mud and orange tape all over his legs and feet, movember mustache on the finger, ans he's feeling pretty dope. closets don't makesense to him, being in one makes things seem completely unnatural.
he already misses his incense. they made things easier and the world make more sense. all the smoke somehow calmed him down even if that seems impossible. he may be among the trees at camp, but until he feels that almost meditation-type peace of the smoke in him lungs. apparently to buy lighters at 7-11 you need ID.. it's fucked up, but whatever.
he misses her. after all this time trying to pretend, he's back at the first place they were at at the same time. he wishes he'd met her that summer, but they did eventually meet and that's all that matters. life is awkward, but not always a bad awkward. he can deal with this type of awkward easily. maybe it'll get easier to trust people to know about him. he hasn't even told the twins about his whole big gender thing. fuck, he doesn't know how any of them will take any of this shizz. adventure begins right about now.
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