all out of my control.

calm. it never seems to happen anymore, everything just keeps racing, keeps on pounding on without a break to cool off. he doesn't know how much more he can handle, how much of the bustle and craziness he can take before he breaks down. he just really needs the world to calm its tits for a week or so, so he can catch his breath, catch up on all the things he planned on finishing. the days keep plowing on and he can't stop it. he pretends to not have reached the last leg of his will to carry on. everything just gets to be too much at once. he enjoys the sleep, the only rest, the only break from it all. only, he never remembers it.  ten days before he can occupy in his own area. chances are, with how busy he is, he won't get the chance for a few weeks at least. he can't stand the fact that the world has been treated so badly, he can't stand that people of the 99% are looking down at the protest. everyone should realize how important this is. everyone should be ready to occupy, this is for every one of us. he needs to take all his hatred for the system and pour it into the fight. there is no way we can be ignored. tomorrow things change, tomorrow is the beginning of the next level.  in a way, he's scared. he's scared to fail, scared to not be given the chance to show what he could make of his life. he's scared to stand out there without the support of more than a handful of friends. he's scared to show his family who he is, what he believes in. most of all, he's scared to end up stuck in a boring, old, single routine. he's scared to let peope in, he's scared to force them out, he's scared to stand up, he's scared to not take the chance. he doesn't even know what to do with anything anymore. something needs to change. breathe. slowly, let it all out. breathe in, breathe out. calm, ready to face the world.  a new day, a day closer hoping, praying, begging to be heard in a crowd. screaming for change, for a better tomorrow, to live a life without the constant worry of what rights they will take next. we are the 99% <3 <3