hold me tight, tell me I'm the only one.

cinnimon teas are the best things in the world. honestly, not only do they taste like sex but they also actually give me energy unlike most teas. only problem is that after a cup at like midnight, I'm not thinking I'll get much sleep. shall now go on a big tea hunt to find the best teas. dear gods, my tea collection has gotten to the point where it seems like Ramona Flowers'. this is both amazing and terrifying. 

he sees the world in a dofferent light when not thinking about his own life. his friends come to him with their problems and he suddenly turns into a fountain of relationship advice. any queer issues and he's found a way to either take their mind off it or work it out. yet the school won't let him take psychology. he wants to help, to make each soul's life a better place. he's being denied the things he actually wants from the education system. so he looks forward to a year of being allowed access to the school library to do all sorts of research on his own. he'll show them that he's capable of education without their help. he's looking forward to not having quite so much on his plate so that he can afford the time for his own research. 

this summer he's begun to realize some changes he has gone through with so much time away from everyone. he has entered a whole new level of flaming, it's almost surprising he hasn't burst into flames. he's put all the useless time doing nothing into being dedicated to certain things, things he has yet to come out about to more than a very select group of people. most of all he's grown to love life. there is a purpose and things seems clearer than ever, he finally has the strength to put as much of the depression and self-harm as he can in the past. the battles may not be over, but for now at least, he's winning. big time.

as the days to count down get smaller and smaller he gets more excited. he can't wait to let everything fall into place, to fall for her all over again. his skin tingles at the thought of her being to close in such short time. four short days before halfway around the world turns into a mere 15 minutes away. he can hardly think about much else.

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