all the passing piranhas.

he forgets yet again that it is his birthday. he'd think it would be a hard thing to forget with all the birthday wishes, although it's lost all sentiment. he really doesn't know how to feel like his birthday exists, so he tries to be a little selfish and enjoy the day, but it feels both like he's lying AND like he's being a greedy fuck. he just wants to give this girl everything, he wants to see her happy and he doesn't care what the cause of that happiness is, he wants to make it happen.  he's too fucking Canadian to be allowed to function near anyone with an ego higher than the average person. although the narcissists draw him in, give him a power to throw the compliments into since he knows he doesn't deserve it all. he knows everything  he receives is too much and tries to balance the world by giving it to a dominant being. even though that generally just creates a more off-balance world, not that he cares as long as he's rid of it.  another day gone by, forcing him into yet another age he doesn't know if he's ready for. his id is already getting used to do something age-restricted in the morning if he doesn't chicken out, yet he's wondering what the fuck numbers are even for. things should be measured in other ways as apposed to time on the planet in a given lifetime.  <3 <3