confession time.
1. my heart's been jumping from person to person for the last 3 years.
2. change scares me more than almost anything else
3. the only thing that scares me more is being alone, even if it's just someone to talk to and hold their hand, it makes me feel complete
4. I try to seem like I know about things when I have no idea. this is most likely because my friends are pretty much all smarter than me...
5. when you start to get to know me I'm just a pervy boi who wants to get in anyone's pants. if you get to know me better you learn I just want to cuddle
6. I find it easier to identify as male because I can't stand being female more, but in actuallity I'm more like third-gendered or agendered.
7. I have no idea what to do after high school. I'm too scared to tell my family about what I'd really like to do so I can't think of anything else I can use as a default.
8. I'm actually not okay with my mom working at my school at all. it's to the point where I'd consider moving out before the end of the year just to get away for a bit.
9. the only things I'm good at are contradicting myself and being uber queer.
10. sometimes there's a part of my mind that tells me to just stop and go back to being a slut who spends their nights drinking and getting high
11. it feels like all my friends are moving forward and gaining knowledge while I keep making the same mistakes and staying in the same place
12. I still haven't heard a Tegan and Sara song..
13. only a very few people make me feel like I can actually connect with them. I could count these people on one hand, worst part is that will only see one on a regular basis.
14. I have no clue who I am anymore.
15. I don't know if I'm a cat or dog person.
16. I have almost no gaydar, this means I fall for straight girls or I assume everyone is gay just because they're cute.
17. the first time I tried alcohol I was about 7 or 8. it was sangria and I thought it was juice until I tasted it. I still can't stand the smell of even red wine because of that.
18. I'm scared of my boss.
19. the school system has done nothing for me but break down my self-esteem to a level way below the majority of people's.
20. crying sounds like a good hobby right now
21. the only place I feel I belong is in public parks or beaches
22. anarchy sounds like the only way a peaceful world could exist
23. smiles are the easiest lies
24. most of the time people I'm physically attracted to and people I have emotional relationships with are the same people. I have to choose, usually resulting in the latter.
25. I'm not okay.
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