there's freaking people in my house all the fucking time. I hate it. I get home and have to wait 10mins to get in the driveway because my roommates' friends don't know how to park a car in one spot instead of two in the driveway. and the doorbell rings at all sorts of random hours. I walk dowstairs and there's like.. 5 guys just chilling there. and that would be all fine and dandy if they decided to at least be consiterate about it, but they leave dirty dishes in both sinks and on the counter for days, they've left rice in their rice cooker for long enough for it to be covered in mold, they don't sweep or do any cleaning, the stove always has a dirty pan on it, and the actual stove has spills all over they don't borther to clean up. they always leave their shoes scattered RIGHT at the bottom of the staircase so I end up tripping over them all. they leave hall lights on all night. they talk loudly and have friends over to party until like 3 or 4 in the morning on week nights. they smoke in the house. and I could go on.
but now they want to leave, possibly for the first of may, and there's no way we can move. I'll be in another fucking country until the night of the 30th. unless we do it over Easter break. but no, that's bullshit. I've moved two times this school year and I'm one of those people that doesn't deal with big changes, I just freak out and want to go get drunk or something to pretend it never happened. I honestly can't even really call Richmond home after living here for over 7 months. the town of tsawwassen, even on the streets is more home than this will ever be. I just never liked the present, the past always seems so much clearer and I know what I shouldve done. I know that's bad, but I do try to bring myself more into the present.
so school... I'm already sick of the schedules and the having to meet requirements in classes I'll never actually use. school is just bullshit. I can learn just as much, if not more, on my own if I tried. classrooms are not a good learning enviroment for me. nothing ever sticks unless I take the time to do things over and over or I find a way to remember an incident that I learned it. yeah, I'm a shit student in classes I don't have interests in. but if I like something, I'm the fastest learner. funny how that works.
on one hand I hate how petty everyone is, the fact that we all just want material possessions, how we find flaws in everything and attack based on them. why can't we all just get along and be happy as people, as one. then I around and see something pretty I want, automatically judge someone based on their appearance as they walk by on the street.
it makes me sick how humans are programmed in such a way where this happenes...
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