like I knew that I would now.

he doesn't even know how to deal with his emotions. he goes to this place of extreme femme everytime he highly, highly enjoys something. if he is around girls that he likes he'll make an ass of himself acting way too girly for the rest of his life, he'll swoon and giggle and become overly sensitive. if it's a movie he just squees with no end in sight. he'll squee and curl up and clap his hands with his knuckles and make noises only heard from the girls in anime. charters in books or movies or tv shows make him love them to death until he hates them. he'll end up literally crying when he sees their face because he loves them so much that he hates them. he just has a lot of feelings. most of his feelings are for things that he knows he cannot have. when by the odd chance there is something thy he likes that he ca have he goes into panic mode and automatically fucks everything up. at least after a while. he can't even stand how many feelings avengers gave him. he literally came out of the theatre wailing about things being perfection, turned to the side, saw a cardboard poster of all the avengers, hugged the Natasha side, and screamed marry me. then continued to wail and hug it for a good few minutes. there's picture evidence.  his teacher gave him a psychological analysis today in class. basically the teacher said he has a hard exterior and no one can mess with him. he has power and manliness more than any other physical female the teacher had met. although apparently deep down he has emotions and he can be hurt. he wanted to laugh at it all because he doesn't see the hard shell at all, yet he really has been looking for someone to acknowledge the bits of manliness he possesses. that one teacher so far is the only one to mention it in almost a year. it felt too good.  <3 <3