in the end it doesn't even matter.

he tries to get a little more into a body he can feel comfortable in. his mother complains about it all. he wears mens jeans, she flips, he wears mens deodorant and she tells him he can't put it on in the bathroom because he doesn't like the smell. he's trying to just do what you were  he's so tired these days that he can't even function. everything blends together until he can't even tell the difference between weeks in the past and the future. he's just so done with everything the world seems to have to offer.  everyone around him is spreading their wings to take off on some magical journey through life. somehow it seems to be everyone but him. he really has no will to even finish the year anymore. the academic route has no appeal to him when he can get all the things needed for an education online. even though the access is there, the way society works does not base anything on knowledge, only who can afford to get big fancy degrees. he's so sick of this bullshit that life drags him through on a daily basis.  <3 <3