more than you could ever know.

he rides the fast train to confusion. in everything he does, he does to try to get a step closer to finding answers. he's slowly discovering the balance between his femininity and masculinity every time he tries to go and explain it to someone else, every time he tries to explain it his explanation slightly changes, then he has to start over with the first people. it's a process that has him completely worn out. every night he flops into bed exhausted, not knowing how he'll manage to wake up and face another day. every morning he wakes almost as tired as he was the night before.  he really doesn't know hat he wants to do with his life anymore. people tell him to do what he loves. he loves everything queer, British television, poetry, and various forms of art. his only options from that would be to be a British actor (except fame scares the shit out of him), write for theatre/ film/ tv series, or do some sort of LGBT activism. although he's not too clear on the path he'd take to do that. he would have to look into it a little more before coming to some sort of conclusion. this is his life that they're talking about.  <3 <3