we're crying in America.

he racks his brain for anything to be used as a new year's resolution while the day is quickly arriving. he has a few ideas consisting of things about girls and his gender presentation and such. mainly girls. the middle of winter is cold enough for him to revert back to wearing flannel to bed he's huddling for warmth in the covers, hoping some blast of warm air will come his way. all of a sudden it comes to him that he has to be the one to keep himself warmed up. everything he stands against seems to be what she lives for. he can't help it that the unattainableness of it all turns him on, that he can't seem to stop thinking about her even when she's beating him up both mentally and physically. her breathing is enough to keep him energized. none of this is worth the effort but he loves a chase more than anything, he needs to know all the answers. <3 <3