bloom and grow forever.

as 2011 comes to a close, there are many things he wishes to leave behind. old feelings for girls he no longer has a chance with after how things ended, the amount of stoopid things he's said and done, the pressure to be what society sees him as gender-wise. he can see a year ahead with a much brighter future, with many good memories to be made within it.  everyone seems to be making new year's resolutions. he always seems to have a hard time coming up with any that he could stick to. this year he hasn't even gotten a chance to think of any ideas. he could try to come out completely and hope that things will change for the better, he could try to move out, he could try to fix things so there isn't that awkward tension between them whenever they end up in the same room. nothing seems quite right. fuck, it doesn't even seem like winter to him, let alone time for new year's to be here already.  another year come and gone and all he can say is that he is glad that things are moving forward and he will remember the good times for the rest of his life. the people who made his year will be the ones he will always remember as the good people. <3 <3