harry potter.

I know I should be happy. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, and I was fortunate enough to go see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. on opening weekend. in IMAX. but no, all I feel is emptiness. it's like I'm on my own little island stuck between the land of tsawwassen and richmond. one where my heart is, my life, but physically I am gone. like my heart has been ripped out and left there, while my body is here, living someone else's life. neither my heart nor my body know who or what they are anymore. somehow I just don't belong anywhere. the middle ground: no man's land. that is where I lie. and to make matters worse, it's as if I'm being blended, mixed up, confused all over again. yet again, to be moving with less than a week's notice of where. never getting a chance to reroot myself and figure out how to cope. each time dying a little more. and it's not like I can even self-medicate. I've left behind my days of recklessness and substance. nor do I have the time or money for changing my hair, piercings, or tattoos, my fall-back helpers to let me feel at ease. so I run around with no purpose, no direction, no emotion. and then I see the boxes. the pieces of a life once whole. suffocated, trying to escape, dying to be free. and the tears flood. there is no stopping them. who is this person they belong to? it seems a lot like who I thought I was, but really, who am I? lifeless. the life the boxes contain is over. now there is just drifting. that place between life and death, watching the world pass by, never engaged. 

I suppose I should try to not depress everyone to death..

Harry Potter was awesome. of course no one else in the bloody theater dressed up. party poopers. and yes, I did cry. people really need to stop dying in them. it`s not cool. except those stoopid ones who deserve it.. they can go die in a hole. slightly dissapointed at 1. the lack of hardcore fans in the audience and 2. that it was short. arent they all supposed to be over 2 1/2 hours?? it didn't even start by 7, and it was already over at 9.19?? but go see it. luna is awesome, umbridge is a bitch, draco's a disgrace to slytherins, voldy breaks shit, and if you see it in IMAX you can see every wrinkle and hair on everyone's face. plus there's an epic pair of plaid jeans that I want. yes, I am a little bit bitter about the lack of tonks. and that the tiny like, 45seconds they showed her, she looked normal. but other then the overdose of Harry being a egotistical twit it was amazing. go see it. now.

now I shall go fangirl over Harry Potter art on da.. 

go make me a sammage!!!