time will not erase.

he was moved to tears by the movement, by the video. then he went about caring so much. until hours after he had not sat and processed the video. he likes the ideas, he understands the horrid living conditions, but after this it might not end. even bringing peace and stuff to them would mean coming closer to completely exhausting the Earth's resources. he's afraid to tell his peers who put so much into this one activity that as much as he will help them in supporting the cause, he has other causes that he will be pouring his energy into first. he's scared that if the world gets the type of peace he's striving for, there will be bigger problems for the world that there are currently. are human rights worth the death of us all? he can't decide on his own.  he's come so far from just wanting to be close to her. he's gotten to a point where an arm around her waist, fingers interlocking is not a case to bat eyelashes at. it's normal, it's comfortable. he wishes there were things other than that that were easy to initiate without putting himself too far out, things that could communicate feelings. things that could help him tell feelings. he's so tired of being the one that can't get it together. he's so tired of looking for a way to be together that they may never play.. he's too tired for this shit. that's all he knows at this point.  <3 <3