remind me, my mom is unreasonable. I can get my hair cut because she won't pay for it or let me go out to van where I can get connections. yet she expects me to find someone IN RICHMOND that needs a hair model and will do mine for free. not. gunna. happen. it's annoying as fuck. for 'healthy hair' you're supposed to trim it every 6 weeks. I get my hair cut every 6-12 months.. it's been 8 so far. and I've been asking to go for about... 4 or so. pretty soon I'm just gunna end up "going out with friends" and just go somewhere and get it cut.
I'm actually sick of not being able to afford anything. I mean, until I was 12 my grandma cut my hair, and after that until last summer I'd only gone to places like magicuts and great clips. the one time I went to an actual salon it was cause I found it free on craigslist...
and people younger than me are getting their Ns and their own cars. I couldn't afford to go to an actual driving school so I had individual lessons and he booked my test really late. I don't know if I'll ever be able to afford a truck if I'm pretty much paying for my entire schooling. for once it would be nice to be able to just be able to afford something without thinking about it and having to go over my entire budget.
it would also be nice to not have 1000000 things to do for school so I could at least go out and get a job. I'm still drowning in stuff from spring break. have an English quiz first thing tomorrow. have to wait for my mom to go to sleep so I can reread the chapters. then write a 4-person, 6-8min comedy sketch. which is due second block. tomorrow I get to work on kanji and mobile ideas. maybe get to start on whatever homework I get for physics. if I'm lucky. not at all ready to go back to this grueling mess of work.
12 school days left till Ashland. finally get a little bit of a break. then catching up like crazy and not being able to even breathe because of so much work. also, only get 5 weeks of rehearsal because of it. yeah... that's 10 rehearsals. in total. scared as fuck. so I have to at some point memorize a Japanese script that has not been made yet, memorize my lines for my play, memorize my lines in the sketch I have to write, plus manage to keep up in all my subjects. I nights just stop caring about Japanese and just dedicate myself to classes I actually need to pass in order to graduate. I've already got Japanese 12, so I can learn the actual language later. I have yellow, pink, and green books. plus blue book is on my laptop. so I have the tools that are given in school, plus a bunch of online stuff should help me.
might just go fuck it and just go sparknotes the chapters I need to review and then go to sleep. I already wrote the first version of the script. then we had to add another person. and I'm the only one doing any writing. and only two of us were even in class discussing it. not only is it unfar because I am the only actual writer, but I don't even have the time.
at least I finally managed to get binding and getting dressed down to 5-10mins so I don't take hours to get ready in the morning. just like.. just over an hour.
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