keep holding on.

he could spend his whole life being beaten down and never get used to it. it's even worse when things seem to be going pretty well and then BAM, shit happens. that feeling he wouldn't wish on anyone. when he feels so stupid and useless and like nothing even matters if he's alive, yet he keeps getting beat down until he's ready to throw the towel in and that bitch knows all the right ways to get to that point quicker. he's trying to man up, pretend it doesn't hurt, stay strong, but it physically pains him so that he can't even function anymore. all he asks for is a little pain medication and some love, just to feel wanted.  then she goes and makes his day, makes things seem almost okay as long as he gets to see her soon. as long as she is his and he is hers. as long as he can hold her.  <3 <3