I have a dream about her.

he can't remember life much before she started making every day a beautiful day. 19 days filled with her and it feels like this is how it's been forever. the rest the the 18 years before that seems distant, as if from a separate lifetime. with two weeks left of high school he doesn't quite have the time to be completely checked out of thinking school things. he doesn't even care anymore as long as he can say that he's hers. getting through 7 more school days and 2 days of finals might be the only thing he manages to do before he needs to spend every moment with her.  he's so tired of putting the things he loves on the back-burner. he needs to finish writing the fanfic he started, finish the book he's been reading for forever, work on his sketchbook, make a pile of things he's been meaning to, and get back on his skates. none of it's gotten done because of how much effort he has to put into school. it's not like his grades show how much work it's taking anyways. the entire school system has become a major piss-off for him. he's so ready for school to be out at this point. apparently school just isn't done with him, though. it's a hard concept to decide why after all this time he can't just let the last bit happen without having to put far too much effort into functioning.  <3 <3