the place that I met you for the 97th time.

sometimes you think you really know people, that you can actually understand where they're coming from, what's going on in their life, what they would do in situations. then you think about it for awhile. what the fuck do any of us know about anyone else? even people we've known for years, seen almost every day most of our lives. we don't know them. we may know stories, we may know what kind of things would represent them. we may even know what they would be doing at any given time. but we never know who they really are, what their innermost thoughts would be. even some stoopid things like some of their favorites we may never learn unless we actually ask them. it's nearly impossible to know someone else unless you are with them at every moment of their life and talk about anything that ever pops into their mind. or if you can read their mind. 
thats what makes people so interesting. a person is this whole other life filled with everything you are, but in different ways. they have a different way of everything and it can either be appealing or revolting. sometimes you know which when you first meet someone, or even see them. sometimes it takes years of trying to get to know them a little to figure it out. but usualy you know in the first few meetings or so. as a species, people tend to base too much on first appearances. which sucks when someone that you would've gotten along with any other day comes along, but they're having a bad day and end up taking it out on you or something and everything is thrown off because of that first meeting. 
on one hand I love people. hearing the life stories, the entertainment of having someone so different around, learning from them. but then I also hate people. what they're capable of, how they can just not care about things that mean so much to others, the hate, that we can't all get along.
I can never quite make up my mind. that's ok though. I generally end up contradicting myself by the time I'm finished saying things anyways. I'm just that much of a loser.

as humans we usually seek connections with other beings to allow us to grow and feel loved and just become a bigger cluster of people. we want to be all together. we want to know each other. 
but there are times when that just gets to be too much and we just want to step back and be alone and think things over and just BE. without judgement, without trying to impress, without having to communicate. 

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