finally done. just two easier tests to go and I'll be done school. except summer school but whatever. jut kinda had a bit of a coma, should prolly get out of bed and do something productive.
tried to start explaining why I have a genuine dislike for the word 'lesbian'. the way the word sounds is just too flowy and girly and.. final. it's like anouncing to the world that you are shoving yourself in the cis-gendered female box and will only ever be attracted to people you meet in that box. I feel anything but cis-gendered and female is something I rarely use to describe myself unless it's saying female-bodied. plus I love transpeoples and genderqueers and such. I just have a promblem being even the tiniest bit attracted to cis-gendered males that don't have an androgynous look.
the problem with cis-gendered males is that I honestly can't feel anything for them. yes, if we're frends I can feel that, but anything more and it's like I'm numb. even having sex, the only way I feel anything is if it's extremely kinky and crazy. and I mean like HUGE marks left behind. bleeding scratchmarks, bitemarks that leave bruises for days, anything dangerous.
with cis-gendered females even holding their hand I feel more than just plain sex with their male counterparts. unfortunately no one else has ever really been interested in me so I wouldn't know, but at least I'm attracted to them. that can go a long way.
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