I'm just doing what comes naturally.

he's been so tired since he's  gotten back to school. it's not even the waking up early or the amount if homework, it's the getting up to be around people all fucking day. he's not good at the whole social thing in person.. or on the phone.. or on webcam. he's getting so worn out just looking for ways to get it done faster so he can go back to being anti-social. naps and food and Internet seem to be the only things that really matter to him at all.  no matter what he does there seems to be something that keeps him from completing a goal. either his energy level or what is being served or just life in general. he isn't even making sense anymore, he's so preoccupied with trying to stay alive and semi-sane.  his tears make their way down, the stories of their weary eyes are a little bit in hiding. nothing seems to make sense anymore at all. he cat even get his shit together to work on monologues and such. he can't even reach to where he wants to be in his dreams. every few seconds he finds himself dozing off, eyes closed, not remembering how that even happened. in the mean time he'll just slip it's a state where something actually interests him <3 <3