get to purest hell.

in all the chaos, he's not been able to really do much to calm his heart. the shameless flirting with everything that moves hasn't been working so well as a cover. he wishes things were easy, that his heart and his head could work together to make the butterflies make sense. he's practically begging himself to stop feeling emotions that have him more confused than ever. nothing seems to work, only waiting around for some sort of reciprocation.  the school system is making things all the more confusing with the rumors of all sorts of things happening within the BCTF that had never been discussed at all. everyone's trying to find the answers that haven't been given in the past. now the truth is starting to come out, leading to implications of hardships ahead.  his entire being is beginning to fall to sleep, being tired out long ago. all his energy has gone into the rest of life so that he is left to try to come up with a better solution. he's so tried, dragging himself to an upright position with all the effort he can put in. <3 <3