look into my eyes very eyes.

everything is just numb. just a video happening in front, without any actual emotion. nothing is really real. maybe it's all a dream, waiting to be woken from it's grasps. although conversations still happen; children still play in the parks. even when the tears rain down, they don't know why. there is just emptiness. a piece of the puzzle missing, waiting to be found somewhere out there. 
out there where there is more than just confusion. out there one has to choose: male or female, yes or no, alive or dead, happy or sad, gay or straight, rich or poor. out there no one seems to understand being in the middle. no one out there knows what it's like to live outside the black and white. it's a hard concept to understand. 
yet they expect conformity. they find it hard to understand anything outside the norm so they make everyone else live the hard way and cator to the expected way of life. maybe that's just too fucking hard for some people. so everyone tries to go about their own life their own way then BAM, some fucking idiot decides to spread word around that that way of doing things just isn't right. this is what spreads hate, this is what kills people.

schools think they're safe. the people in them tend to think they do pretty good. they think that they're cracking down on 'no tolerance' policies. they just turn a blind eye. they say tabacco-free, yet they have a designated smoking area. they say all inclusive, then they take special needs kids out of classes to sit in resource rooms doing nothing. they say no bullying, but they only see physical violence as bullying. they don't give a fuck that kids can't concentrate in class because people in the class are making loud, descriminative comments. they don't even care when students stop showing up to classes because they feel like not going is the only way to get away from hate. they think they have it good, but they don't know inside the student mind. 
even the staff, they claim that the school doesn't have any issues, but they don't see the way the kids interact when they aren't looking. and it breaks my heart. 

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