being around people, getting fresh air, and speeding down highways seems like the best thing I could've done right about now. staying cooped up at home for too long drives me a little crazy. as much as I protest against the sun I love being outside. under trees lying in fields, running around with animals, even water parks once in a while. just breathing in air that hasn't been recirculated or held in one area for the longest time.
having other people around helps, so I don't just turn completely socially awkward and lose all ability to communicate with other human beings. too often have I spent almost entire days where I just work on a project or something and realize that I've gone without speaking for too many hours to count. it gets too easy to get lost in imagination or in someone else's written words. actual people being there helps so that doesn't happen too often.
the more I drive, the more I grow to love speed. there's so much thrill in the fact with a sudden movement the whole car could be totaled, I could die on impact. maybe too much thrill. taking curves in the road at 110km/hr with traffic in lanes on both sides, where if anyone makes one misjudgement, everyone's screwed. it's one of the few things that still makes me feel alive. funny how that works, being so close to death and feeling so alive. almost like being about to lose something so precious awakens a part of me that wants to fight for it. oh adreneline rushes, how I love you so.
walking into hot topic, everything is pridey and it completes my life. honestly, there were rainbows, stickers saying I'm gay and that's ok, shirts that said pride in rainbow print, RAINBOW FISHNETS, and everything queer it seemed. and Harry Potter, because it's freaking awesome and slytherin stuff is freaking amazing. just wish I had enough to buy the tie instead of just the wristband... and a wand would've been cool. GAHHHH I'm such a dork.
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