breathe.

so. yeahhh. today was tiring. soooo much walking and really freaking hot temperatures. finally my mom agrees that it's too hot out here. ahahahaaha look who's smarter now!!!

ohh and guess who backed out of new years?? yeah, that's right, the one person I wanted to see. so who the hell knows when I'll get to see her if she continues to refuse to talk to me. I mean.. I could camp outside her house before going, but if she's doing a 'family thing' she might not be home. and that would just leave me sitting outside in the cold by myself wishing I could see the girl I'm in love with and try to make her realise that this doesn't have to mean that we can't even be in the same space anymore. I just wish I could wave a magic wand and fix it instantly. not gunna happen. but a girl can dream. can't she?? so I guess I'll just hit the energy drinks and make sure everyone gets leid and hide how much I would rather be nothing than suffer the pain. or not, and stake out a corner to be miserable. never know.

at least I got an awesome shiney hoody today, so I don't have to worry about what to wear. one less thing to make my life complicated and annoying. 

for now I shall just suck it up and then be forced to learn how to serf in the morning, yay for waking up at like 6.30am to go into the water, which I don't even like doing. only 8 more days, then I can come home. well 7 by the time I get this online, since there's no bloody wifi in our building. another thing I hate about this stoopid trip.

mele fucking kelikimaka.

<3 <3