these boxes are killing me slowly. hiding away everything that means anything. my closet is pretty much cleared out. the boxes still have no idea where their destined to lie next week. it's getting to me. more than before. today I hid, in the farthest corner of my closet, away from the light, away from the voices, away from the door. it was a very new feeling. I suppose closets with purple doors don't repel very well. although I really wouldn't mind staying in there for awhile too much as long as I had someone to keep me warm. ;) I mean, the fastest way to warm up is body heat. and it works best naked. so honestly, any volunteers?? it's only free till... I guess when I move out. so maybe saturday. I also really wouldn't mind if SOMEONE decided to just show up at my place on friday. around 4ish. my mom's going to a staff christmas party from 4-9pm and said I could have someone over. and that could definitely lead to shinanigans. the good kind of shinanigans.
anyways. I stopped being lazy and washed my hair. the pink once again, did not come out. well... most of it did on the right side of my head, but almost none on the left.. sheiiiit?? so I is half tonks? my mommy might flip a little.. until it fades or a cut my hair. but she doesn't want me to cut it. I told her I want it shorter. she laughed and asked if I was gunna shave it. I told her I might. she freaked. right now I just kinda really want a fauxhawk. NOM. like... 3 inches on the top, and about 1/2- 1 inch on the sides. but gradual not just bam. boom. hello, I look like a retarded box. no. nothing like that. XD
been having Potter fangasms all day. well... stayed up till 3am nit realizing the time whilst going through hogwarts deviantart page... and today random fanfic.. not all of it PG-13.... and stuffs.. yeshhhh.
realized that all I really need to stop failing at everything in life, is to just sit with one of my friends and talk for a couple hours or so.. I've been so separated from them all and I miss them and it's turning everything into let's see how depressing nikki can make this. although my mom really isn't helping... neither is my hug-withdrawl because of the whole new school, where people don't feel the need to hug me every 5-10mins. and that part really sucks. I miss sdss. it was good. I belonged to something. (oh god, that reminds me of my lines in apostrophes. I still need yo memorize some of them...) I wanna go back... to like, gr.8 with the knowledge I have now, and do it all over. not waste time with stoopid people, but just spend as much time as I could with the ones who matter. and just have more time with everyone, before everything changed. before a bunch of the people who I had the best memories with graduated, and it takes forever track them down. before the people who I try to keep up with made so many new memories that I'll never be able to compete with..
Time for an adventure.
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