let's run away.

midterm season once again, although this time he's lost his motivation. he doesn't know how to make himself focus and study. he doesn't know how to detach from the world of his friends who get to fuck around whenever they please. he doesn't know how to stop wanting to cosplay when he doesn't even have many cosplayable fandoms. and not ones that anyone would do with him. he can't deal with all the homestucks when he just wants something simple. he wants to play with wigs and try his hand at sewing his own costumes and paint and props. he's found the door to this whole new world and he doesn't know how to make the time to step through the door to the other side. it's a whole new world he's looking for, a place where it's okay to just be whatever the fuck happens. it makes him happy yet it depresses him with how much he can't put in that kind of effort or can't measure up. he'll never seem to do anything well enough to be noticed. <3 <3