want to be a mighty king.

there is nothing that has turned him against sleep. in fact, he rather enjoys it, but these days it is becoming increasingly harder to reach it. when the sun is all the way down and the rest of the world has reached their breaking point of staying awake, his mind switches on. he has all sorts of ideas flying around in his head, crashing about while he tries to hold on. and then he thinks that jacking off is the best idea ever at 1am, even though he doesn't have any response. he could watch his body quiver, contract in orgasm, yet still be there completely unmoved by the process. he almost feels as though his body is feeling this sexual thing that his mind just can't seem to wrap around. it's almost frustrating. eventually 2:30-3am rolls around and he's starting to wonder what there is left to do and he curls in a ball and finally falls asleep. if only he could be conscious of those dreams, if he could see himself how his dreams picture. sometimes he just really needs to feel more masculine than he really is.  <3 <3