really good to hear your voice.

it all goes so well, he can open his mouth a little, he can explain just what she means to him. he honestly can start planning the rest of their lives together even though she's so young and they don't know how she'll feel about him once she gets a little older. he's terrified, but at the end of the day he wants her to be the one he grows old with. he wants to get her pregnant so she can have a child of her own (even if he promised he wouldn't get her pregnant as a joke). he wants to love her for as long as he can remember how to say the word love. although he can't picture the ceremony just yet, he wants to marry her someday. he wants to share every moment with her: the good, the bad, everything. he just wishes he could spend every moment with her. he stumbles across a post on an ex's blog, where she claims to be a girlfriend (a title she refused to call herself when he was mad about her). it stings for a second as he keeps reading. he feels like he never mattered, like he should be happy for her but she never even told him that she was seeing someone. then again he never told her. he guesses they're even, but it still hurts to see those words from the first girl he fell in love with.  <3 <3