I waste my time.

he's so fed up with the schools. 13 years they screwed him over and in 4 more school days it will all be over. he's done with the lack of support for ways he can learn, he's done with being thrust into classes he doesn't even like just to forfill requirements, while classes he has been looking forward to since he first heard of them aren't even offered due to low numbers. he's tired of counselors screwing around so that he has to take math 11 a third time. he's tired of getting shitty grades because he has no time to learn the material. he's tired of having to sneak around to get any school work done. for 5 years of high school he's been an odd child out. he hasn't fit into one specific group, even in planning he got his own clique because he didn't fit into just one. graduation shouldn't feel any different, yet he knows that he failed by still having that sense of not knowing what's going on. he's always failing at something. the only thing getting him through the last day this week is getting to see her on the weekend, otherwise he couldn't care less. he's holding on by the seems, begging someone to make it go by faster. he doesn't even know how it works.. life that is. <3 <3