I wanna be your lover.

he's all out of his wits, not knowing what he should be doing. his heart's saying a few different things, his head tries to hide from them all. he wants things to be easy when he knows they never will be. the law is technically not on his side but he wants to just forget about that one little thing. he wants to just forget it all and stop dealing with emotions at all.  he had boat cruise. one of the events he's supposed to hold dear about his grad year, yet he didn't even feel much about it. the  best part was seeing certain people. except there was crap music (and not even the tolerable kind that he could flail to anyways) and the crew was practically staring them all down on the deck enough so that he didn't want to stay up there. he disappeared when cameras showed up and tried to find alone time whenever possible just so he could breathe. somehow he just really wanted to spend a little time with about... 5 people. he's been so tired, so out of it after the AP exam. he doesn't feel like life is really happening anymore. it's all coming to a close around him and he's ending up getting lost somewhere amidst it all. this whole graduation thing is freaking him out. less than a month before he's officially graduated, a month and a bit until the last of the grad events. he's just not ready. even being one of the eldest in his grade, he can't wrap his mind around it.  <3 <3