goo goo gajoob.

he's not quite sure how to deal with so much technology at once. he's had two years of getting used to his iPod and now an android phone seems so odd. he has so much he can do and so many options, it all seems so foreign to him. he understands it, but he can't quite understand that it is his phone. he doesn't feel like he deserves anything worth anything much. he's never had anything but the cheapest of everything so he's trying to understand how this is something that he could be allowed to have.  he doesn't want to really leave the place in his life he's in. he's not ready to go off and make something of himself after a year of such struggling to get anything done. he's so sick of the job action and the shit of grade 12 and making sure he graduates. like, fuck. he doesn't even really care if he graduates that much at this point, as long as he doesn't have to keep being reminded that this year, one of the worst for the educational system of BC in a long time, is his last.  <3 <3