and over again.

his body itches, aches for sharp objects. he craves the pain that he once knew with every fragment of his being. he deserves it, he should be punished for the shit he's done thus far. he's tired of having no motivation, no strict plan of action to get everything done. he's been lazy and he has no liable excuse, he deserves the pain. he can't stand to be alone yet another night. he's rambling, going out of his mind. he can't quite figure out how to live like he used to, before everything changed. there he sits, freaking out, not ready to graduate yet so ready to be done with it all.  <3 <3