I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad.

everything goes numb. he can't seem to remember what was important before, just that all the nerves in the world wouldn't be enough to equal what he'll be feeling tomorrow. not only is he going in for his first tattoo without telling his mother, but on top of that tomorrow is the first day of the trial for the fucking asshat of an excuse for a RCMP officer who fucking drove drunk whilst off-duty and killed his brother. sure Orion wasn't his blood brother, but with their parents dating for 7 years or so they were pretty much siblings. the most proud moment he remembers feeling was the time when they ordered pizza and Orion nonchalantly called him "sister" (because at that age he had no clue what anything but heterosexual was, let alone anything but cisgendered.) now almost 3 1/2 years after the accident that fuckass is starting trial and all the emotions are coming back up again.  since he heard there's been a sharp pain right in his forehead, impossible to ignore. every cell in his body has been uncomfortable, crawling until he knows that the maximum penalty has been placed on that excuse of a person. he wants to curl into and ball and forget the world, wants to run until physical exhaustion very nearly kills him. more than anything, he wants to destroy everything that humanity has become, everything that makes the world a horrible place to live in, everything that the societal norm has become. when it's all done he wants to just sit in the mess of what is good in the world, hold it close, and cry. real boys do cry.  <3 <3