who knew?

he knew that something like this would happen, the feeling of electricity shooting all the way through his body between the girls, the girls onscreen, and the adorable gay subtext. he's still floating on the high it gave him. he can't wait for the next one. he could watch this one over and over just to pay tribute to the beauty of the work.  last minute song changes are scary. like, super fucking scary. he can't sing the range he wishes he could. fuck, with his voice he can't get nearly low enough to feel comfortable in his skin. as least the drag made people see him as a man for once. not just a boy, but a man. nothing beats the feeling of when people can see past the shit of the physical sex. she asks him to hold her, more like commands him to do so. he does so, but that just doesn't seem to be enough to keep her. the moment is gone and he's left wondering if it ever really happened. he could relive it for eternity. <3 <3