if we go to sleep we can wake up home again.

he sends out a not-so-silent plea to the world. he hopes for a quick recovery, for a painless future, and a night with much rest. she needs it more than anything. he struggles to remember kanji so he can give her something to see, something that he is telling her even when he isn't there. she struggles against the ropes binding her arms down, away from her head. she already pulled out one tube from a hole in her head. everyone wants her to be comfortable. she's strong and she wants out, but they need to let her rest and recover. she is their hope. she is the light that shines to illuminate the day, every day. 


he can't help but wanting to be elsewhere. being stuck in Vancouver while everyone else is either in tsawwassen, working, or off on an adventure is the last place he would WANT to be. he lays alone in his bed with all the Teddy bears that never hug back. he waits, watching the time go by. he can barely contain himself as he waits to have her in his arms once again. the tears spill from his eyes after days of hiding. he allows them to just be free. all the hard work, all the long days, all the emotional strain comes out in those two steady streams. he cries for his family, he cries for his great-grandma, he cries for everyone who's been in the hospital at a bedside for hours on end, he cries for the distance from Canada to England, he cries for the eight hour time difference, he cries for his own lack of sleep and motivation to sleep. all at once, it escapes him. for once he is vulnerable for longer than just when he is alone. he is vulnerable enough to open up, to really bond and share his heart. he just hopes that it will last until he gets a chance to do so..
he feels zombified. each movement weighted, yet floating without thought. not really seeing what is right in front of him. brainless, hoping to grab a brain that can get him thinking once again. he relies on caffine to keep him from crashing and napping during the day. he doesn't know when he will get to rest again. it's all just one long day to make up the summer. 

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