rehearsal again. I'm starting to get excited for this again. 1. this is the first time Palmer players has put on something that isn't comedy in forever (no one remembers ever doing any) 2. actually reaching a big audience and getting them to see the way that hate can hurt a lot more than they might think, even if it's not intentional. 3. actually putting myself out there in such a way. this is kinda like a huge step in my coming out along with it being being based on my actual life. not sure if anyone has really figured that out yet..
I wish somehow I could get darsey to come and see it, since I pretty much wrote it for her, with her in mind for most of the pain. she was my muse without even knowing it and I just want to her see.
apparently not all my deaths were as bad as I thought. but I still really need to fix parts up so it's not completely.... rawr. it's great hearing people that are usually so much more intelligent and amazing at everything tell me that my writing is actually really good. at least most of it. *squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*
now that my baby is starting to work out a little bit, I have more brain space to try and bring my grades up as much as possible so I don't have to repeat stuff or I can at least go to summer school. also get to actually take some smal breaks every once in awhile. it's great.
need to start actually getting up on time so I have time to get more fuckery together and not all rushed and stressed. also needing to go man clothes thrifting to build up my man wardrobe and get some warmer weather clothes. cause I fail in that department.
mmm coma of sleep sounds good.
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