she keeps you dangling, your heart she is mangling.

not sure if I have this exactly right, but close enough. the thanksgiving scene in across the universe.

max: "What will you do? What will he do? Oh, my God, what will he do?" Do, do, do,

do, do. Why isn't the issue here who I am?

Uncle Teddy: Because, Maxwell, what you do defines who you are.
Max: No, Uncle Teddy, who you are defines what you do. Right, Jude? 

Jude: Surely it's not what you do... but it's the way that you do it.

so. does what we do define who we are? prolly not. someone can do something completely stoopid, something that's not like them at all and not have it affect who they are. on the other hand, our jobs, our schooling, our families, and all that shit is what defines us as people in society. it's bullshit, but that's how it works.
does who we are define what we do? most definitely. if you are a certain way you are going to continue to do things your way instead of going off and doing something random. the housewife isn't going to go apply for a job at a lumber yard. the NHL hockey player isn`t going to go and invite his buddies from the team to a tea party he hosts.
or does it not matter what you do, just the way you do it? yes. that's true. like Richard always said, don't half-ass it. do really well, make me proud, or if you're going to fail, fail spectacularly.

gender. seriously, why do we need labels for it? because of fucking society we are born either female or male. we are labeled female or male. we have legal documents saying if we are female or male. we die female or male. it's really sad. society doesn't recognize anything but the two extremes in gender. there are some people who are on extremes like that, others are somewhere in between. some don't even stay in the same spot on the spectrum for more than a few hours. yet there is still so much focus on just the gender binary.
personally, I don't fall anywhere close to the extremes on the spectrum. using the terms female and male I guess I would say I switch between female, male, both, and neither. I can't predict or control when it happens. physically, I am female, yes. but that is different. physicality is sex. emotionally is gender. sex is forever... until you raise the money to change that. gender is fluid, can change at any given time.

doing the dead parrot sketch in drama. STOKKKED!! find it funny how friends asked if I'd be doing monty python at the beginning of the year when I told them my teacher is british. and now here I am. XD ahahaahahaha

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