update on downstairs: john's car was brought back on a tow truck at 2.30am
what the fuck is the use of having a dead guy's car at our house?? his son lives in richmond, give it to him. and if you absolutely MUST bring it back here, at least do it at a decent hour, not at fucking 2.30am with annoying-ass bright flashy lights. thank youuuus XD
in other news, today is the 'day of peace'. some guy on facebook made an event to try to get everyone to just live in peace and harmony for at least a day. not say anything (or even think if you can help it) the least bit mean, show everyone some love, talk to people out of the blue and show kindness to them, etc. it really is a beautiful idea. I mean, I wouldn't be able to do it all nonstop for the res of my life, because I, like the rest of the world have been corrupted by hate and self-centeredness and greed and lust and such. everyone has been affected by these at some point or another, as it has become human nature. even the best of us have been exposed and once we've been exposed it's impossible to live life in a completely peaceful way. but for a day I think I can do most of it, and then continue on as much of it as I can. and find a balance where I take the good parts of peace and the good parts of reality, practicality, modern day life.
what I most want to do right now is sit under a tree of a warm, sunny spring day. feel the wind blowing ever so gently. nothing but paper, pen, pencil, pastels, and a beautiful girl to make the world less lonely. I want to show her how beautiful the world really is once you get passed the horrors mankind has placed upon it. I want to lie on my back with her head on my stomach, holding her hand and watching the clouds go by. I want to be free in every way that is good. I want to be able to live without worry of the future. I want to be in the moment. I want to be my own person, not give a fuck what anyone else in the world is doing and just do whatever pleases me at that exact moment.
I want to live the hobo life, just meander to and fro from place to place and rest wherever my feet decide to stop. To actually meet every passerby, listen to their story, share a moment. I want to see the sunset from the top of the world with the one I love. I want to dream as we can only in our first few years of life, before society tells us there is a limit to what we can achieve. I want to spoil those I hold dear, shower them with sweet nothings and experiences never to be forgotten.
as much as in most ways I am not even remotely so, I am very innocent. I like to see the best in the world, in people. I believe it exists everywhere even when it is completely hidden from view. I think everyone can just be nice and play along to make the world a better place, not realizing how much some people are against such things. I can be that small child not knowing the hardships of the world, thinking that everything will be all butterflies and rainbows. the sad thing is, I can feel this even when I've seen some of the worst the world has to offer, well at least this country. I've seen the real world, I've lived it over through their stories. yet I believe in innocence. maybe I'm a dreamer, that would explain why life right now is in this completely dreamlike state. nothing is real, so just fucking believe in the best and live it as if there is nothing else in the world, just there and now. because really, in your mind, that's all there really is..
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