birthday. really? already? HO SHIZZ!!! feels like november still. how I wish it was... give me time to redo the past, get a grip on what's going on in my life. maybe just be super cool and all peace and love and shinanigans like that. because everyone needs to learn to fucking live in harmony. I just want everything to be perfect and every living creature to love each other and all that jazz.
I think I can finally say I'm a peace. with myself, with the world (kinda), with nature, with the state of being (even though it hates my guts).just fucking do what you want and if people don't like it, fuck them. and seriously, LEAVE ANIMALS ALONE!! they can't fend off you fuckers, so don't try to hurt them. theirs lives are worth more than yours if you pointlessly just fuck around with them. *punches wall* just keep them healthy.. and trees. habitats are good.
yes, I can also be quite the treehugger. I miss actually doing things to keep the world safe. in like... gr.3 we had a student protest to keep the forest, and won. stoopid people wanting to take away all our trees.
so yeah. nothing feels like it's changed. 17?? what is that? honestly couldn't feel farther from a special day. but now I have less and less time left in the school year, I'm losing more and more time I could've been spending with her, but can't because of this whole silly thing that could've been easily avoided. I miss her. she brightened up my darkest days.. I know I shouldn't still think of her everyday, or if I'm going to, I should at least grow a pair and actually CALL her. better yet, go to her house and make her see me. but I'm still terrified. she makes me nervous, even more so when she doesn't like me. is this the year I can finally do it?? for now the waves in a wispy dreamland call to me, luring me closer.
post names. guess what songs they come from.
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