and it feels so right.

he's so close to the end, yet those last couple weeks seem to be the hardest. he's barely been paying attention the last couple weeks as a cool-down from the AP exam. the end of the year's kind of crept up on him without notice. he's been so busy with forgetting that graduating means actually doing something productive with his life that he hasn't gotten a chance to prepare the final bit before being thrust into a world he doesn't quite feel ready for. he's been out in the world and learned the hardships, but this time is without the safety net, without the second try if you screw up.  with so much stress it's really nice to find someone who can instantly make his day better just by her presence. he wants to tell himself that he's deserving of finally finding someone, although he knows she could do so much better than him. he's terrified that she'll realize that and take off on a whim. at the same time he trusts her, without any reasons to really besides his gut feeling that she will be a long-term thing, someone he will come to trust anyways.  he hasn't felt this giddy and excited about a girl he doesn't talk to in person very much ever.  he's only felt so excited after any amount of time with one girl and that is a completely different. he's starting to wonder just how to keep calm whilst in the midst of loving things.  <3 <3