I am generally amused by the fact that it takes something as simple as wearing a faster pussycats shirt and pointing out my shirt says pussy to make me happy. honestly, not only is derby amazing, but favorite team (GAHH purple and silver and black) AND I get to say pussy. doesn't get any better than that.
carnival with some pretty awesome chickas. mmm fast rides, greasy yummy doughnuts, girls galore, and proving manliness. it is great. I sat on a wall. gotta love no gravity. general awesomeness is just awesome. wish every day were so simple. sometimes the top of a ferris wheel is the only place where life seems real. people connect, reconnect, and bond in ways no other place can make them bond. staring out into the night with the lights glittering here and there. talking, cuddling to stay away from the breeze. there is not better feeling. unless you count the first time a beautiful girl looks at you and you can see she wants you, the first time she grabs your hand, the first time your lips meet, the first time you tell her that you love her and mean it, the first time your bodies seem to mold together. girls and amusment park rides, the best feelings on earth. or just the general feel of being out at night in the peace of the darkness.
I've realized Tay I do not actually know how to be alone. I float from lover to lover not letting myself breathe in between. I want to do this differently. it has been months, I should be ready to move on, even if I will always love her. I need an outlet to pour all my love into, a person who makes me feel whole again. I need a girl every bit as emotional as me. hoping for not drama...
give me a shout if you have any ideas or anything of the sort for me. guess my songs from my post titles.
email: nikkiasb@hotmail.com
facebook: Nikki Oreo Barnes
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